I've been letting my blog slip through the cracks of life. When I started this little journey, I swore I'd be consistent...at least for the sake of Zeke. I want to be able to look back and remember our times exactly the way I experienced them. Pictures are great, but putting the memory into words? Even better. But, alas, life has gotten in the way. It's the everyday that gets in the way, it seems. Same old story. I won't let it happen to my blog though. Even though my life may not be that exciting to most, it's exciting to me. It's fulfilling and happy and, yeah, sometimes annoying. But if it weren't it'd be boring. And for that reason, my blog will live, damn it!
In the midst of all the "everyday blah-blah-blah", I've begun something new...just for myself. Now that Zeke is in school all day (it seems sooooo long that he's gone each day), I found that it was time to figure out just who I was again. I started job-hunting. I found something that I thought would be fun...but really, I wouldn't have been compensated as well as I feel I deserve. I searched some more. And I searched my soul. What did I really, really want? I knew first and foremost, I still wanted to be Mommy. That's my full time job until he's on his own. I swore to his little tiny face when he was just a newbie that I'd always be there when he needed me. And for sure, it's still my priority, gladly. But, I knew I needed something else in addition to Mommy-ness. Something to drive me, use my skills, and make me feel like a contributing member of society again. Pauly and I talked and brainstormed and mulled. And after much deliberation, I think I've sort of just hatched a new baby. It's Beakers. And Beakers will be awesome. It'll be fun for me, fun for any kids that happen to benefit from a Beakers program, and fun to develop. In a way, I'm pregnant again. I'm starting to grow something new...something that has come from deep inside me and has been on my mind for a long, long time. And I'll grow this Beakers baby into something great. Just you guys wait and see.